Thursday, March 22, 2012

It's been a while!

I've been MIA and I'm sorry..... It seems I'm back to the fun waiting game (it never seems to end).  We wait to get AF, then to O, then to test.  Once we get our BFP, we wait for our first appointment, then the gender scan, then for baby's arrival. 

I'm 34 weeks and 3 days along today.  This coming Monday marks 5 weeks until my due date.  As grateful as I am to have been able to experience this journey, I'm officially OVER IT.  I'm so ready for her to get her here and hold her and love her.  I have cankles (big ones!) and my blood pressure's been if-y.  Dr. C. seems to think there's a good chance I'll have to go on bed rest soon.  I don't want that!  I miss sleeping on my back, & gasping for air when I walk short distances. Ava is literally sucking the life out of me.  But I'd do it all over again in a heartbeat.  She's worth every ache, pain, and pound I've gained (40 so far!)

I was given a beautiful shower last month and we got pretty much everything we'll need for a while.  It feels so good knowing that my baby girl will be loved by so many people!  We really are a fortunate family & we are so blessed.  We've got her room all ready, the car seat's been installed,  all we need is our sweet baby girl to fill the space! I can't believe she could potentially be in this world in a month!  J's getting super excited too...he's going to be the best daddy ever.  

I am, however, looking forward to getting my pre-baby (make that pre-wedding) body back.  I want to feel sexy and confident again!  I'm not afraid to admit my vanity on this....but that's the MAIN reason I want to breast feed.  I know, I know.  I should want to do it for all the other reasons (healthier for Ava, better on our grocery bill, yada yada yada).  I like those reasons too, but honestly, it's for me.  I hate feeling like I do (fat & squishy) & I know breastfeeding will get me back to normal more quickly.  If that makes me superficial, then I guess I am, but I'm ok with that for now :) 

Hopefully, I will check in a couple more times before her arrival!!  That's all I've got for now :)

1 comment:

  1. Hey, girl! I had my little Nolan two weeks ago - almost TEN weeks early at just over 30 weeks. He was 3lbs. I was completely and utterly unprepared (I wrote a blog post on it, if you're interested in a lengthy read!). I'm pumping now (he can't breastfeed, yet.) and it is PAINFUL. So hang in there. I'm told it gets easier as the weeks go on and eventually one day it won't hurt anymore. The weight-thing has been difficult and I'm not even as big as I would have been had I gone full term. We already go through so much emotionally it's just another thing we can add to the pot, I guess!