Just sayin....

 Ha ha...I loved this....I have a fear of birds, so my friend thought of me when she saw this.  Fitting :)

Once again

I'm on CD1 :(

I'm going to start a fertility cleanse once AF leaves.  It's a 30 day cleanse that's supposed to eliminate toxins from my liver, uterus, etc...  We'll see how it goes. If I'm not preggo in the next 2 cycles, I'm going back on clomid. WHY IS THIS SO HARD?

There's nothing wrong with me or J. I don't get it. At all.

So much for the good news I've been hoping for.

Good news would be great

Well, the past week or so has been an emotional roller coaster for our family.  My mother-in-law was taken to the emergency room on July 8th. It all started on Tuesday of that week when she went to get her upper teeth pulled to prepare for her dentures. She only had 6 or 8 pulled and was going to get the remaining ones pulled at a later date. Well, when someone is diabetic, it's crucial that they eat and stay hydrated. She didn't do either for 3 days in a row after her surgery!  Naturally, she was getting worse by the day, so my father-in-law decided to taker her to an urgent care facility on Friday afternoon. Well, they took one look at her and called an ambulance. When the EMT's arrived, they couldn't find her blood pressure (it was so low!) and her blood sugar was around 490-something. She was on the verge of death!

J & I made our way to the ER, and they decided to admit her into ICU. She was there for 1 week due to kidney failure. We really thought she wouldn't make it.  J has been so nervous and worried this whole week. She's now in a regular patient room, but it looks like she'll be there for another couple of weeks, doing hemodialysis. They are also doing a biopsy today to rule out cancer, since she's a breast cancer survivor.  That's the main thing J is concerned about. I've been saying a ton of prayers for her and for the rest of the family...

So, we've been coping with that, my friends, that I mentioned before, are going through the Big D, my half brother & half sister's mother has breast cancer & needs surgery, & my co-worker's sister also has breast cancer. AND I broke my arm last Wednesday. Can it seriously get any worse?

J & I took a bike ride at a local park so that he could get some fresh air & keep his mind off his mom. Well, it was so much fun until I ran into his back tire with my front one. I took a fall right onto my left arm (the one I write with, of course) and screamed like a little girl. OMG I have never felt that kind of pain!  I've never broken a bone before, so now I know it really does hurt!  We walked our bikes back to his truck & he drove me to an urgent care, since I didn't want to wait for 8 hours in an ER for an X-Ray. Luckily, I work for an orthopedist, so I was able to bring the X-Rays in to have one of the Dr.'s take a look. Yep, I have a tiny hairline fracture on my radial head (that's right by the bend of my elbow)  There's not really anything they can do for it, so I just have to wait for it to heal over time. Thank GOD for painkillers! 

Needless to say, after the last couple of weeks, I'm so very ready to hear something positive.  Maybe it will be me who brings the positive news?  As in "I'm pregnant!" or something equally cheerful. That really would be the cherry on top.  We'll know in a few days if I can scream that out loud :)

They say things come in 3's

I'm sad today...  I just learned that a third couple I know is getting divorced.  The first one is my BFF that I mentioned before, who would have been married for 9 years next month.  The second is a couple who got married a little over a year ago (we kind of knew it would happen-long story).  The third is of an old friend of mine who married her high school sweetheart!  They've been together for like 12 years or something and they have 4 (yes 4!) kids together.

It don't understand why this happens to people who say they love each other. I mean, I know divorce is common.  I'm a product of divorce myself, but I just don't get it. What makes people change?  And if you truly love someone, that means you love them unconditionally.  Right? 

I do know that I could not imagine my life without J.  He's my best friend. 

Holy Crap

I'm exhausted!  My weekend was non-stop from the time I left for work on Friday morning to late last night.
Friday night was soooo much fun with my BFF.  We started out in Roswell with tapas & drinks. I was thinking that this would pretty much be our night, until we decided to head to Midtown....we closed down the bar!  I didn't roll in until almost 4am.  J was not happy, but I don't care. It's not like a get a ton of girl time. We had so much fun dancing & singing to the live band....  it was great :) It also helped when people kept asking my friend and I where we go to school. They thought we were 22!  That's a bit of a confidence booster...  Maybe they just had their beer goggles on, though. Whatever, compliments are always accepted :)

Then Saturday, I met up with another one of my best friends at the lake and we boat-hopped & drank yummy beverages.  I always have a blast with her.  I hated to leave, but J would have been pissed if I bailed on him, since we had plans for that night-we had friends over for a cookout and fireworks...again- good times!  Luckily, no one was injured & nothing caught on fire.  *you never know with our group of friends*

Sunday, my mom, step-dad, and me went to visit my cousin at his lake house. My aunt and other cousins are in town this whole week, so it was really nice to see them all. We couldn't stay too long, so J & I are planning on going back up there this Friday night, so that I can get some more family time with them before they head home. 

Monday, we just lounged a little & watched the Casey Anthony trial (i think she did it) and did laundry. last night, we scored some free tickets to the Braves game in the Suntrust seats...These are THE best seats in the stadium and they offer all-you-can-eat-and-drink.  Needless to say, I have completely over-indulged this weekend and it's really not helping my weight loss goals. I'm gonna start over today, I swear!  It's so hard to be sociable and be healthy.  How do I find that balance?

Sunday also marks the 12th anniversary of my dad's passing....even though time goes on, I never stop thinking about him and missing him.  He was a great man and I love him....I know he's with me in spirit.

I'm really trying to focus more on spending quality time with my family...I miss them all A LOT.  The problem is that we are all over the place and we all have extended families, so it's really hard to find time for everyone. This is my new goal for 2011....  Family is everything to me!

So excited!

My BFF (of 19 years!) and I are going out tonight for the first time in years.  Unfortunately, she & her hubby of 9 years are going through a divorce.  He was very controlling & would never let her do anything (and he's honestly REALLY boring). So, now that she's not living with him, she's got freedom!  It's been tough over the years because we've never been on the same page in our lives. When I was living it up in my 20's, she was focusing on being a wife and mom. Now I'm married, trying to become a mom, and she's ready to go out & live it up.  It's like we've switched roles. It's OK though, because I know we'll always be there for each other. The only time I've seen her has been for her kids birthday parties over the past 6 years. So this will definitely be a change of pace for both of us!! 

Of course, J wanted to know if he could come... ummm, no.  I need my girl time :)  He'll find something to get into, I'm sure. 

Now....I have to figure out where we will end up...can't wait!